Have you ever had a moment of clarity and been able to see something for what it really is? Clear as crystal with no emotional interference and nothing standing between you and what is right in front of you? Time stands still in that moment and it's like being rustled from a deep sleep that you really just don't want to exit from.
Sometimes we realize that waking up can be the disappointment of the day because that dream is dead and it will have no funeral. No ending to the beginning. No closure and no answer to the question why. Sometimes there just aren't any answers and we have to live with never knowing.
When you come to a realization that serious change is on the horizon and there's nothing you can do to stop it and have lost control of your life, it can be just as heartbreaking as the journey that got you there. And there is more to come. It's inevitable, unstoppable... it's just there. And destiny begins to feel like an invasion of the undesirable. And failure... well... failure is not an option because it never is. There is no failure of life because life is life and life is the most valuable asset we have.
We are made no promises of great things when we enter this world. No promises that we will never stumble, fall or make mistakes. Sometimes those stumbles are hard. Sometimes we break when we fall and sometimes our mistakes are huge. There just aren't any easy ways out. If history has taught me anything it's that every time I go against my gut feeling I end up stumbling, falling or making a huge mistake that has to be fixed or cleaned up. And I have made the promise to myself that I will never again go against my gut feeling.
It's as perfect as the passage of time until the moment that time stands still. The stagnant and smothering feeling of the stopping of the clock. Time stops for just a split second to lift the veil on truth, as painful and ugly as it may seem.