Have you ever taken a really good look at yourself? I'm not talking about looking in the mirror to see what's on the outside. I'm talking about taking a look at yourself to see what is on the inside. Looking at the things that make you who you are. That make up you. It's not as easy as you think.
It's late. I was sitting outside on the porch watching the sunset and a few things were running through my mind which made me replay a few things from over the years. I know, I know... leave the past in the past Lanie and I try so hard to do that but sometimes it creeps up on me. Here lately, it's been creeping up more than I really like. Funny thing is, I know exactly why.
Taking an honest journey into yourself is not exactly an easy thing to do. We have all had our moments, both good and bad and sometimes moments of extreme ugliness. I'd love to embrace the whole "our life experiences make us who we are" and sometimes I do wonder if that's true but most of the time, I think that statement is bullshit. We are who we are because we choose to be who we are. I go back to what I have been saying for years and that is the fact that we all live our lives by the choices that we make. Choice and change are two incredibly small words that have such large impacts on our lives.
Maybe sometimes we have a tendency to forget how far we have come in life. Whether we realize it or not, we are all builders. We build our lives. We build our friendships and relationships. We build trust. We build businesses and build our houses into homes. We build our environments and we build ourselves. We build our futures. We build because we are human and that's what humans do. Never settle for less than what you are capable of building.
I never claimed to be a perfect person. I have a lot of flaws and have made more than my share of mistakes and bad calls. Ignored the tell tale signs of what I should and shouldn't do and started building somewhere simply because it sounds good at the moment. There are a few things about me that I have discovered in the past few days. Some that I'm proud of. Some that I will change and some that are honestly hard to face.
The thing is, just like you, I am a builder. Life and time will continue to march on and I, just like you, will continue to build.